*Reason for Wanting to Lose Weight - 2*

My list of reasons for wanting to loose weight are in no particular order and to some may seem a little selfish and extreme however these are my reasons for wanting to shift the pounds and they are the ones that keep me motivated.

My reason for wanting to lose weight number 2 is...

Confidence

Confidence is something that I have had issues with since a very young age (I'm sure that many overweight people have the same or similar issues with their confidence) and I can remember always knowing that I was larger than my friends. I have mentioned previously that I took part in a number of sporting activities when I was younger and I will blow my trumpet by saying that I was rather good (considering my size). Although I loved taking part in the activities I hated knowing that I was being watched by people as this made me extremely self conscious.

This is still a regular feeling and emotion that I have. For one I hate meeting new people, not because I'm an unsociable moo but due to feeling so self conscious and to be honest somewhat vulnerable, the whole situation can become very overwhelming. This is not only an issue on a personal level but also on a professional one too. I cringe at the thought of attending work functions and beginning a new semester at University as I have to meet and socialise with people on a different level or introduce myself to others whom I didn't already know.

My lack of confidence as a result of my weight and appearance has stopped me from living my life, not only on a social aspect but also on a professional level too. I no longer want this to be an issue and I hope that within time (and weight loss) my confidence will grow as I begin to discover what life could and should be like.

For now, being aware and admitting my issues with confidence is a positive step in the right direction. One step at a time.

Is lack of confidence something that affects you?

Roo xoxo

*Reason for Wanting to Lose Weight - 1*

My list of reasons for wanting to loose weight are in no particular order and to some may seem a little selfish and extreme however these are my reasons for wanting to shift the pounds and they are the ones that keep me motivated.

I chose to write this as my first reason as it is topic that I encounter on a near on daily basis and one that I never realised would mean so much to me.

My first reason is Bray...

(This is me and my niece Bray whom in this photo was only a few hours old. Notice me trying to cover my huge belly with a stuffed toy)

When my sister was pregnant I never really wanted to get involved and was hand on heart actually a bit of b**** towards her and for that I truly apologise. However when Bray popped out (trust me I know babies don't just pop out) I fell in love with her straight away. Although I am still young (so I like to think) I question whether I will ever have children of my own and I think that's partly why I was less than kind to my sister.

Moving back to the losing weight malarkey...

Since Bray has become part of my life I have realised how unfit I really am. Although I'm struggling to hold her at the moment due to ill health I was struggling to hold her and walk around without gasping for breathe. Bray is currently at the stage of trying to walk and I know it wont be long until she does. This has turned a light on for me, I know that after a while I wont be able to run around after her and play things that she wants me to play as a result of being so unfit as well as my actual size permitting me from doing certain things.

(Yes that is a half a cupcake)

I never thought I would say it but my niece means the world to me and I want to be the best auntie that she could ever wish for. I know by losing weight, keeping active and being healthy will mean that I can do all the things that anyone else can as well as setting a good example of a healthy lifestyle (something that I never really had as a child).

So reason for wanting to lose weight - 1 is Bray.

I will be the best auntie ever!

Roo xoxo