Friday 16 July 2010

*Reason for Wanting to Lose Weight - 2*

My list of reasons for wanting to loose weight are in no particular order and to some may seem a little selfish and extreme however these are my reasons for wanting to shift the pounds and they are the ones that keep me motivated.

My reason for wanting to lose weight number 2 is...

Confidence

Confidence is something that I have had issues with since a very young age (I'm sure that many overweight people have the same or similar issues with their confidence) and I can remember always knowing that I was larger than my friends. I have mentioned previously that I took part in a number of sporting activities when I was younger and I will blow my trumpet by saying that I was rather good (considering my size). Although I loved taking part in the activities I hated knowing that I was being watched by people as this made me extremely self conscious.

This is still a regular feeling and emotion that I have. For one I hate meeting new people, not because I'm an unsociable moo but due to feeling so self conscious and to be honest somewhat vulnerable, the whole situation can become very overwhelming. This is not only an issue on a personal level but also on a professional one too. I cringe at the thought of attending work functions and beginning a new semester at University as I have to meet and socialise with people on a different level or introduce myself to others whom I didn't already know.

My lack of confidence as a result of my weight and appearance has stopped me from living my life, not only on a social aspect but also on a professional level too. I no longer want this to be an issue and I hope that within time (and weight loss) my confidence will grow as I begin to discover what life could and should be like.

For now, being aware and admitting my issues with confidence is a positive step in the right direction. One step at a time.

Is lack of confidence something that affects you?

Roo xoxo


2 comments:

  1. I'm STILL working on the whole confidence thing...

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  2. I guess its something that may take a life time to discover...

    xoxo

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